I was getting really down on myself for not being able to do the things I should be able to do easily. Thinking that it may be because my craft room was a mess and unorganized I started to sort through all my stuff to get it to a point I could find what I want when I want it. Getting frustrated when I can't find what I know I have. I started sorting through all my piles of craft stuff, making little progress, then it stopped. For the last three days I've had
containers of craft bits and pieces spread out all over the floor of my living room waiting for me to continue sorting.
I got a call from my work saying they had some hours for me! Yeah, I thought, this will be great! I packed up my craft bag and away I went. I ended up not using any of what I packed, we had a really good time anyway. Once I got home I still felt (Yucky). I thought I would start painting even if just to mess around with the paints. I've been having the urge to paint for a while and just haven't.
Not knowing what to paint I thought I would work on a picket fence illustration for my blog. I've been trying to think of a better header for a long time and I like the idea of a picket fence. Lost and Found Lane is a hard title to illustrate in my mind.
So anyway, as you may have seen I painted a new header and got it up and running on my blog. I've changed my header so many times over the life of my blog, but I really like this one.
The really great thing that happened after painting this new header, when I woke up this morning I felt so good, so happy and couldn't understand why. I remembered! It's the painted last night! With my short memory and being so scattered most of the time, I forgot that painting makes me feel better and makes me feel centered and focused. That is why I'm posting this story, maybe you have been feeling the same way or something similar and can't seem to get out of your funk. Maybe, this will be of some help to you.
I really believe that just the fact that I painted, and finish the painting, was just the boost to my inner self needed that is making me feel so much better today. The painting isn't perfect or the best, but I finished it and got it posted. This is the same way I feel every time I finish a painting, I just keep forgetting. I even remember telling a friend the first time this happened "I found my path to my center. I need to draw a map so I don't forget how to get back when I get lost again".
Here's my Map!
I only hope that I won't loose my map!
I hope you will have a